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Dear Yuta-kun,

I know that you will never get this. I've been looking each day and the system retains your number. Maybe that's a blessing in disguise because I have things to say to you that people who aren't alive can't really hear anymore. Things are complicated, more so for you than me I'm sure. I guess that's technically speaking. When you're dead I don't think things apply the same, but still it was you who went through the worst of what we both did.

I told Bakugo that I killed you. It's what happened, if I weren't stubborn about my quirk then maybe, just maybe, you'd still be alive. His answer was to tell other people in my life. I don't want to and won't be doing that. Not for shame, but because when I tried to turn myself in shortly after, I was turned away. Everyone keeps telling me it's not my fault that accidents happen, but there's no way for me to atone for my part in it, accident or not. Not being able to save you will stay with me the rest of my life, as will the short time that we were friends.

I gave your ring to Maki. She's a very pretty and confident woman and I'm sorry that I couldn't save you for her sake, either. Without you I'm confident I wouldn't be alive either and I promise that I won't waste what you sacrificed for.

I hope the next time I message you, even if it's only your ghost on here, that I have more pleasant things to say.

Sincerely,
Shoto Todoroki

[ Yuta had been dead for some time before coming around in the Garden once more. He'd awoken there before, the first time he got lost in the Labyrinth for a week or so but this was different, he felt different.

There were slight fuzzy memories, trying to communicate to people through his Oracle and struggling to get the right words out. He could feel the cursed energy, the negative notes over what had transpired when he died but now? Now he felt whole again, if not a little dazed and confused.

Reading Shoto's message over and over again before he realized he hadn't replied, Yuta scrambled to his feet and started typing out a reply before giving up and calling him directly. ]

Shoto-Kun,

I'm sorry that I left you when I did. I didn't think I was in any danger and let my guard down. It was stupid I know but I don't want you to blame yourself for it. I --Wait! I'm not dead! I-

[ The text cuts off just as Shoto would hear his device ringing or vibrating, Yuta waiting anxiously on the other end. ]

[Shoto gets the text, but doesn't read it as the call comes in at the same time. It overshadows the text. Shoto is assuming that it's maybe Maki? But he's also not sure why she'd call him. It has to be important if she is, he's sure.]

Is something wrong? Why are you calling me from Okkotsu's phone?

[ Yuta blinked at the way Shoto answered the phone. Sure, he was used to the other teen being so matter of fact but he didn't expect it right then, after the text he just received from him.

So, stuttering an awkward sound for a few moments before gathering the words he wanted to say, Yuta finally spoke. A hitch to his nervous-sounding voice. ]

Hmm? Oh, um n-no? I guess there are no pressing matters, everything seems back to normal um... Gomen nasai Shoto-kun I er... I guess I'll leave you to it, you must be busy. Sorry.

[The last voice he thought he would've heard is Yuta's voice. His heart sinks, because it can't be possible. If it was possible, Bakugo would've known about it already. He would've said something to Todoroki that death isn't forever, right?

Shoto is too shocked and the phone hangs up. And his heart sinks, and hsi stomach sinks with it, and then they feel both in his throat somehow and he is calling the fastest he's ever called someone back. He waits for him to pick up.]

...Who is this? Please tell me who you are.

[ Yuta blinks, pulls his phone from his ear, taps it with his hand, and holds it back up to his ear as the dial tone rings out. ]

Hm? Were we disconnected?

[ Shoto isn't the only one whose heart sinks then. Yuta, for a moment, thought that maybe he was still crused? That he was in fact dead like Shoto's text had stated and that's why he couldn't talk, couldn't be heard... Until his phone goes off in his hand.

This time, as he listened to Shoto's voice, he was more nervous than before. ]

Who is it? It's me, Yuta... S-Shoto-kun, don't you remember me? I ... I got your text... I wanted to let you know I'm alright. I'm in the Garden. I'm sorry, I'm so so so very sorry, Shoto-kun.

[Shoto's breath is audible and the sound of it is jagged for each breath in and out that he's actually taking with Yuta saying it's him in the garden. This is a trick right? He's being fucked with by this place? That's what this is?]

...Yuta-kun.

[The last of his word is from a broken sound on his voice.]

You're alright?

[It's not classical disbelief, it's just...]

Where in the garden? I'm on my way.

[He has to see for himself, he has to know if this is just some bullshit being pulled over on everyone.]

[ It's like each and every sound from Shoto's side of the phone is amplified. Each wavering breath, the fall of his voice into a whisper, the broken sound that he wasn't used to hearing from his friend. It was enough to make Yuta tremble with sorrow. ]

Y-yea, it's me Shoto-kun, it's Yuta. I'm alright, I swear.

[ There was a happiness hidden in his tone, something that bubbled up to the surface despite the glaringly obviousness melancholy of the situation. ]

Oh, um let me see... Hold on a moment okay? I don't... I don't want you running into a dangerous situation or anything... I don't trust this place enough after what happened.

[ Classic Yuta, putting his friend first. But it was true, it was too good to be true in fact, he wasn't going to risk something happening to either of them. ]

[Shoto hadn't known him long but someone that he talked to as much as Yuta certainly had him convinced that this must be him. If this is someone else playing a sick prank, he can't believe how well they're doing. They would've slipped up, right? Called him Shoto or Todoroki? Because of how he answered? But no, he hadn't. It's 'Shoto-kun'.

Denying him to come out to the garden fits the bill, too and as soon as he's told to hold on, he stops where he was moving. Nothing needs to happen right that second as long as the phonecall is going on. Shoto's voice is still shaky, his voice joining in on the wavering sound.]

I thought... Yuta-kun I thought you were dead.

Edited 2024-08-31 00:39 (UTC)

[ It might have felt like a sick prank to Shoto. He could have thought this place was having fun at the expense if his sorrow but Yuta had been trying for weeks to be heard properly. So when he spoke and when his dear friend responded, Yuta almost cried.

In fact, he did. Upon being told Shoto thought he had died, he broke. Unable to stop the small gasping and sniffling sounds he made, choking on his words before they came out. ]

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Shoto-kun, I was. I can't explain it but I was and now im not.

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Text; After The Happening™️ (CW Death/Loss)

Text > audio (cw: continued)

Voice; All the things behind it for cw and stuff lmao

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